I will no longer speak in riddles. Here it is. I have heard that I can "appear" unapproachable, as in I generally wear a scowl. This may very well be true, it is not because I am unfriendly though, it merely seems that way because I am constantly in a state of deep thought, or concentration trying to keep myself together. I can not change my face from unpleasant to cheery in a nanosecond like my middle child, (she's a master at it). It is also not easy for me to feign comfort when I obviously am not; it's like having trapped gas, it really hurts but you don't want anyone to know what's bothering you.
It occurred to me that while I am not unhappy, I could be more cheery, i.e. "not let the little things get under my skin so much" for these are the things that bring about the scowl. For example I shouldn't let the fact that my children rarely put their clothes away where they belong, or that they constantly stuff clean clothes in the hamper because they don't want to put them away in the proper place bother me. Neither should I be disgruntled by the fact that the children are having nosebleeds EVERYDAY because they turn the space heater up to the MAX at night, (all the while I'm trying to figure out where the humidifier is and why its so dry in the room to begin with). Nor should any concern be given to keeping a schedule, because its just bound to go sideways; so the calendar can just take a leap because finishing what's on today's list is NOT HAPPENING! Nope I shouldn't let ANY of these things bother me. But they do, and though I could see the benefits of changing my outward appearance to gain the friendship and admiration and love of more others, I am perfectly content with the friendships and love I have in my life right now.
Here is my truth. I don't feel I should have to put on a face to impress people. I am (for once in my life) happy with who I am. I am a kind, friendly, outgoing person and if you give me more than a cursory once-over you'll figure that out for yourself. People, just like books and food deserve to be given a try no matter what their appearance. You know the expressions "Don't judge a book by its cover" and one of my favorite food adages from Yo Gabba Gabba! "Try it, you'll like it!". Grown-ups should take this advice too. However, if you don't want to, Rhett Butler can sum it up for me. "Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn".
Until Next Time,