Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Dear God 2.0

"I'm trying hard to reach you."
"They said "hes' busy, hold the line please", call me crazy, I thought maybe he could mind read."

The opening lyrics to one of my favorite songs. Maybe because I've been feeling that holding myself, but I realized, it's really my own fault.  Seriously.  I don't call as often as I should, and when I do, I'm not talking about anything.  Just rambling...he already knows that he's waiting for me to get to the point (even though he already knows), however like any good parental figure he wants you to recognize and acknowledge what it is you want and speak it out loud, ASK FOR WHAT YOU WANT, I'm not a mind-reader.
The church my grandmother attended

These past few weeks the blog has been quiet, because life as i know has been very interesting, and I needed to process.  I like to think about my feelings a lot.  I hate making hasty decisions and speaking without at least trying to consider how my words or actions will affect others.  This recent time has all come to a head now, and I'm calling on my old friend to really talk. Since I've had time to think it out, and talk about it, I can now clearly express myself and my feelings without compromising myself.

 I've come to realize that you all don't really know me, and that's okay, that's what the book is for ;)  I'm not necessarily going to pull a Don Lemon, but there's a lot that doesn't go in this blog.  Here's a brief synopsis:  My stepfather is in a vegetative state, has been for two weeks now (and I'm pretty sure I haven't talked to him in months).  My little cousin graduated from HS last week and I just figured out the best advice to give her (what I wish someone had told me).  My husband is in school and it's going, it's the combination of school and travel that is really causing friction.  One of my aunts and aforementioned cousin have been displaced by the recent floods in MS.
Down the street from where I grew up

 There's other stuff, but I won't lay it all out today.  Just know that I'll lay out all my newly gained wisdom, (oh yeah got some advice on that too),when I can steal a few moments some other time. Please keep my family in prayer, we would really appreciate it. Thanks. 

Until next time,
Be Blessed

The water has receded in all these pictures, but you still can't get close enough to my aunts house to take pictures, because the water is still covering the roads. C'est la vie.

Sunday, May 08, 2011

Happy Mother's Day

Oh yes, it will be happy, there will be no moping and complaining and whining like last year (It was my party I could cry if I wanted to).  I was no model parent, but I hadn't eaten in hours and my blood sugar was getting low
No excuses, I was slightly awful and that's that. 

This year we're going to early service at church and will get to brunch nice and early and there will be no complaints.  I am sharing my Mother's Day this year with my Mother in Law and though I would also like to have my mother present she works for the unholy WM we can't always have what we want.  I'll have to take her out next week.  My sister's took her to dinner and a movie today, so I'll get her another day. I did mail a card though. 

Mothering is a great joy for me and a privilege as well as a blessing.  But during this time I am reminded of the mother's who have lost children, or children who have lost mothers, or are fearing the loss of one.  My mind also goes to the women who want a child but can't have one for some reason or other. 

I know a few women in this position, and I wish them a Very Happy Mother's Day.  They are some of the most loving women I know and they care for others like they had given birth to them themselves.  I am blessed to have them in my life, to know their kindness and love and generosity.  Thank you doesn't seem enough, but it is sincere and heartfelt. 

I wish you all a Happy Mother's Day!
Be Blessed

Wednesday, May 04, 2011

Update 5-4-11

That's usually the subject line of messages I send to my girl scout parents. This past week has been a whirlwind of activity around here.  Getting ready for the oldest girls' birthday...the big 1-0 and entering the "double digits" as they have so fondly dubbed it was maddening. It was one of those days that I said I wouldn't do again, i.e. double booking activities, but it was her birthday, so I had to pack it all in.

Last week I was making final arrangements for the knitting and quilting classes I started teaching this week.  I made matching t-shirts and yoga pants for all three girls and myself for the Mother-Daughter pajama party, ordered the cake, made reservations for dinner, hosted a support group meeting, went to a friends swearing in ceremony, attended the school talent show, created a site for my knitting students and myriad other things.  The most important being dinner with Pooh for her birthday.  Eleanor's swearing in was a very close second though.

My daughter turned 10 on Saturday, and though I didn't cry outwardly, my heart was bursting inside, and not with all the fear I thought, but with such joy, because as I looked at her, all dressed up in a really cute "big girl outfit" I still saw my child, my innocent baby, my girl who still plays with dolls and wants to play outside, riding her bike and playing tag with her sisters and cousins.  My daughter is still a child, (despite the world around her), and I thank God for that.

I have been dreading the tough questions and talks that are ahead of us, but  thanks to many friends advice I know the transition will be easier than I've imagined.  A couple of tips are already paying off, thanks T. Jackson for the book recommendation, she is eating it up :)  I am so excited for her, and every day a little less scared, because I know that we have put ourselves around people that will help us to make sure our girls grow to be all they can. 

In other news:
  • I started teaching, and let me tell you my seniors are sassy, all good sports, but I got some real firecrackers.  I can't wait to see them next week.
  • I found the Apple Cake recipe; Whew!!!  I really thought it was lost forever.  I was supposed to post it on Facebook a year ago.  I promise I will post it later this week.
  • I am behind on all my other sewing, (especially since I decided to make all my outfits for my Las Vegas trip this summer) look for some FO's soon.  
  • My brother got a job and is moving to Miami
  • and, I've still got more work to do for my quilting class on Friday, so ....

Be Blessed