Sometimes it seems as if life just isn't fair, it's not going your way, and you've just got too much to deal with, you don't feel like you can take another thing. Just remember God is faithful. Last week was one of those weeks. My life is fine, but the people around me are going through, and I was extremely empathetic. Pain of loss is something I have a close relationship with, and I feel the need to try to support all I know in any way I can, and although losing "someone you've known your whole life", and facing possibly losing your own life are two different things; they both come with a similar question: Why me God?
Occasionally you've got time to think about, either too much, or not enough. Either way its the elephant in the room. My friend lost her father just over a week ago to cancer. They knew it was coming, he had been fighting the battle for four years, but the end finally came. Just because you know its coming, doesn't mean you can prepare yourself for it any better. Often that makes it worse. But remember God is faithful. He is always there when we need him. When we feel as if we are all alone and the sadness will swallow us whole and darkness will engulf us, he is there and will bring us through. I speak from experience. When my grandmother died, I felt the bottom drop from under me and I began a slow descent into my own personal misery. It was lonely even though I was surrounded by people. It was lonely because I turned from God, because I thought he had done the same to me, but as I learned years later, he was there, all I had to do was call him. He was faithful to me although I had not done him the same courtesy.
My aunt who has battled cancer in the past, and is now facing it again was my second challenge. I thought that I was going to be sick when my husband told me. I let my mind go to the worst place for a second. I didn't even realize I had done it, til my husband had to call my attention back to the conversation. He reminded that God was in control and that everything would be okay. I agreed, but did I believe. Of course, but I was shaken by the news. I was reminded though of his faithfulness though on Easter. Its amazing how something so obvious can be overlooked so easily. The blood of Christ is a covenant between us; and belief in the love that he showed all of us by giving his life was the ultimate sign of his faithfulness to us all.
When we remember the price that was paid, we should never question his faithfulness to us, but be strengthened by that pouring out of love. God is always faithful we just need to remember to turn to him. He is the greatest comforter and friend we could ever have. He is always faithful.